It’s okay

I’ll do it again till I get used to this feeling of stark nakedness. 

I workshopped my first full-length feature script written at UCLA today.

Truth is, I hadn’t gone back to the story until most recently. I wanted to do a pass on it before sending it to the event organizer.

But I didn’t. The selling. The packing. The meetings. The podcasting… Plus, I knew if I started working on the story, I would have torn it to pieces. I would have detested so much that I would just call it quits.

So I didn’t. When I couldn’t procrastinate no more. I sent the script as it was.

I again, didn’t go to bed until after midnight last night, as if to dare if I would be able to make it to the meeting this morning. I woke up pretty early but didn’t get up until I knew I couldn’t sleep in no more. I gave myself just enough time to get dressed and called a Lyft.

Thankfully, I got there just in time. It would have been ironic if the writer was late for her own script, right?

They asked me how I wanted to use the next two hours, because everyone had read it.

Shit. They did?!?

Isn’t that the name of the game for the writer’s workshop?

I didn’t want to hear all of it. So I asked the group of 14 to read the ten pages from the beginning of Act 2, Page 30.

Then it was the critiques. I started sweating. It’s been a while since I was in a workshop setting like this. I felt naked. But those people read my script and wanted to help me to get better. That’s so big of them.

Here is what really happened:

  • I didn’t bleed to death.
  • People got excited about the potential of the story when I pitched them my plan for the next rewrite.
  • I got some pretty interesting notes and ideas.
  • We went to Panini in Beverly Hills for lunch.
  • I made new friends. Two would be featured on my podcast, after my move next Saturday.
  • A Chinese-American author/singer/mother gave me a ride to the gym later.

 

It’s not terrifying at all.

It’s okay… No, it’s fantastic! I’ll do it again till I get used to this feeling of stark nakedness.

To quote my new author friend:

“It’s time we Asian women make some noise.

 

Yours truly,
YZ

PS. Clocked in 460 words. Tallying 62,214 words. 13.89 days remaining.

Author: Rock Bottom with YZ

YZ is a Shanghai-born LA-trained bilingual storyteller in various spheres.

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