Something I thought I had internalized, but I’m far from mastering it since I started this blog and podcast—
I don’t need to feel bad about how many people who have not responded to my art.
Since I’m competitive and comparing to the real influencers, my stats are pitiful, I’ve tried to sell my stuff to the folks who haven’t seen it, shared it, who may find my art interesting and become my evangelists.
I have a group of podcasting friends whom I’ve met at the Podcast Fellowship. I try to be fair.
Here is my definition of fairness: if someone see my stuff and comment on it, I’ll reciprocate. On the other hand, I get frustrated if I comment on others’ stuff and don’t get the same treatment.
That desire of garnering every “You too, hon!” comes from a needy place.
Here is the thing—
If nobody is watching, would you still be doing exactly what you’re doing now?
Does it matter, at the end of the day, how many people see it, like it, share it?
Of course it helps me to spread the word. But it’s not my drive. Nor my purpose.
Plus, people won’t shut up about the art if it’s truly remarkable.
[Translation: Am I going to make a remark about it?]
But first and foremost, I do it for me.
Then, to those who show up for my art, on any given day.
What an honor.
I thank you.
PS. I’m my own guest for this week’s podcast.
You may find it interesting if you’re also contemplating these things:
a) study abroad;
b) go to film school;
c) become a writer;
d) start podcasting;
e) all the above;
f) fear of the things above.
I hear you. I’ve been there. I’m still working on it.