It’s okay

I’ll do it again till I get used to this feeling of stark nakedness. 

I workshopped my first full-length feature script written at UCLA today.

Truth is, I hadn’t gone back to the story until most recently. I wanted to do a pass on it before sending it to the event organizer.

But I didn’t. The selling. The packing. The meetings. The podcasting… Plus, I knew if I started working on the story, I would have torn it to pieces. I would have detested so much that I would just call it quits.

So I didn’t. When I couldn’t procrastinate no more. I sent the script as it was.

I again, didn’t go to bed until after midnight last night, as if to dare if I would be able to make it to the meeting this morning. I woke up pretty early but didn’t get up until I knew I couldn’t sleep in no more. I gave myself just enough time to get dressed and called a Lyft.

Thankfully, I got there just in time. It would have been ironic if the writer was late for her own script, right?

They asked me how I wanted to use the next two hours, because everyone had read it.

Shit. They did?!?

Isn’t that the name of the game for the writer’s workshop?

I didn’t want to hear all of it. So I asked the group of 14 to read the ten pages from the beginning of Act 2, Page 30.

Then it was the critiques. I started sweating. It’s been a while since I was in a workshop setting like this. I felt naked. But those people read my script and wanted to help me to get better. That’s so big of them.

Here is what really happened:

  • I didn’t bleed to death.
  • People got excited about the potential of the story when I pitched them my plan for the next rewrite.
  • I got some pretty interesting notes and ideas.
  • We went to Panini in Beverly Hills for lunch.
  • I made new friends. Two would be featured on my podcast, after my move next Saturday.
  • A Chinese-American author/singer/mother gave me a ride to the gym later.

 

It’s not terrifying at all.

It’s okay… No, it’s fantastic! I’ll do it again till I get used to this feeling of stark nakedness.

To quote my new author friend:

“It’s time we Asian women make some noise.

 

Yours truly,
YZ

PS. Clocked in 460 words. Tallying 62,214 words. 13.89 days remaining.

How’s your novel going

I signed up for this FREE online course called Start Writing Fiction. It would be quite beneficial for me to go through the motion, get the rough draft done first.

I hear you ask.

Truth is, I put my novel on hold since mid-Aug.

I couldn’t work through the pain.

I couldn’t squeeze more willpower out of my fried brain.

I kid myself that my plate was full with the podcasting.

Half month later now, I know I need to begin again.

But of course, I find it hard to reboot.

The greatest resistance is always the beginning. From 0 to 1.

I signed up for this FREE online course called Start Writing Fiction a while ago.

The course started yesterday.

I think it would be quite beneficial for me to go through the motion, get the rough draft done first.

It may help you, too.

 

Yours truly,
YZ

PS. Listen to the latest RBYZ podcast if you haven’t already. The guest is truly one of a kind! Episode show notes here.

PPS. I’ll start posting the word count I’ve completed per day here till I finish.